Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Month of APRIL 2007
i can't remember the dates.
but anyway.
this month of april brought nothing but sadness to me.
i don't know.
daddy's gone.
good?
bad?
i know the sufferings were gone for all of us.
as in dad no need to fight for his torturing hard life battling over his illness.
but why...
daddy, you always said that you are a burden to us.
but NO.
this was what as a child / wife / family suppose to do.
it was never a burden.
we know what happened to you was not your fault.
you didn't want to be like that too.
but things just come unexpectedly.
and we simply can't change them.
daddy, you make me learnt alot from you.
-work hard now and enjoy life later.
[you work throughtout the day and night, so hard. you didn't stop because you did it for our family]
-be simple and don't bear grudges.
[true friends are hard to find. fate brings us together, cherish them for they are god-sent to you]
-be true to yourself and others.
[people remembers you from here]
-real friends are only a few.
[dad, you are really a friend made of gold.]
my dad's funeral.
newspapers about my dad's happening was published.
Who came to pay him last respect :
-his FIRST batch of workers.
-his PRIMARY schoolmates.
-his SECONDARY schoolmates.
-his SWORN brothers and sisters.
-his ARMY friends.
-his OLD neighbours.
i was touched by those people listed above. though only a few out of each 'catergories' came. But OMG, after 20+ years they are STILL in contact. i heard from my dad before that, one of his friends was the 'radio'. who got many updates from all the past times friends then will announce it. i mean call them. but it was so incredible !
his friends said my dad was really a good and respectable man. he always help and think about others. he also very sui bian, won't bear grudges and all. A very simple man. who enjoys walking and eating at the roadside stall. daddy is like a big korkor who takes good care of his 'girlfriends'. thats what make them jie pai xiong mei. all of them really treasure each other alot.
daddy, you are really the BEST OF THE BEST !
i was thinking of introducing my friends to you on my birthday 2007.
but you left so early.
i know you are sastisfied for you had celebrated with all of us :
-last birthday 7 September 2006.
-christmas chalet 2006.
-New Year 2007.
-Chinese New Year 2007.
you ate all the hao liao you loved , enjoyed yourself to the extreme ,before you left.
what makes me wonder is that...daddy, was all this planned by you ?
till now i can't expect the truth that you are gone.
everything happened so unexpectedly and so all of a sudden.
i really missed you alot.
i cried the day when you left us.
then i was told not to anymore.
so that you could leave in peace.
the day you were cremated.
i tried to be strong.
and i did.
though i did not cry, it was hard to hold on the tears.
but i thought of you, daddy.
you were the strength that made me strong and be brave.
now, funeral was over.
but in the night i hide myslf to cry.
because i missed you.
49 days after 31 of March 2007 9:15am, you really leaving.
today the 18th of April.
i will cherish everday.
especially till 18th of May.
because these 49 days i know you are around.
and only these 49 days you will be around.
Daddy, thank you for upbringing me these 15 years 2 months 30 days 19 hours and 12 minutes .
You will always be part of my life.
every steps i take through the journey of my life, i am walking with you, for i know you will be watching over me, DADDY.
I LOVE YOU, papa <3
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